Friday, January 22, 2016

ARC Review: Unquiet (Resilient Love 3) by Melanie Hansen


Blurb:
Loren Smith has been in love with Eliot Devlin almost his entire life. During their turbulent childhood and teen years, Loren didn’t always understand Eliot, and sometimes he could be a challenge, but Eliot was the only one to ever truly ease Loren’s deep loneliness and accept him. When Eliot’s increasingly erratic and self-destructive behavior culminates in a suicide attempt at seventeen, Loren is devastated.

Upon meeting again by chance nine years later, Loren is enjoying a successful career as a police officer while Eliot’s life has been a constant struggle for stability. In and out of mental hospitals, with a rap sheet a mile long, he continues to be buffeted by the twin storms of mania and depression. Loren’s love and protectiveness for Eliot are deeply ingrained in him, however, and their feelings for each other are quickly rekindled.

Loren has issues of his own he’s dealing with, and trying to understand and cope with Eliot’s bipolar disorder isn’t easy. They believe they’re meant to be, and Eliot brings a fulfillment to Loren’s life that no one else will ever match. But as they both come to realize, love by itself can’t cure all.


Dani's rating:




This book is BRUTAL.

Honest.

REAL.

Loren (Kai's best friend and one-time lover in book 2) and Eliot were childhood best friends. Loren has always loved Eliot.

But Eliot has rapid-cycling bipolar 1 disorder comorbid with anxiety. He self-medicates with alcohol and loses himself for days and weeks on end. He becomes possessed by demons and tries to take his own life.

"People like me better when I'm manic. And I like how I feel ... like I can do anything I want, be anything I want. Anything instead of what I really am, a loser with a fucked-up crazy brain, without a high school education and any kind of real future."

Years after leaving his home town—and Eliot—behind, Loren is not prepared to see the one man he's always loved dancing and prostituting himself at a club.

Loren's heart breaks, but he is still drawn to Eliot like a moth to a flame.

Prepare for serious emotional turmoil. This book is much angstier than the first two in the series.

There is no magic pill for Eliot, no cure. There's only constant vigilance and a plethora of meds with side-effects (including weight gain and erectile dysfunction).

Loren tries. He tries so damn hard. But Eliot is anxious about Loren's job as a police officer. He's terrified Loren will die. And Loren can only do so much. He is helpless in the face of Eliot's illness.

"You're not ready for this," Eliot exclaimed. "That's one hundred percent a fact. It's not going to be easy, Loren."

"I don't want easy, I want you."

Because the story is told from a dual POV, we crawl inside Eliot's brain; we experience his manic episodes, his pain, his highs and lows. And we are privy to Loren's fear, his sorrows and hopes. We see Eliot through Loren's eyes too, this beautiful man who struggles every day to hold on to his mind.

The first two books are scorching hot, but this one, while certainly sexy, is more subdued. Eliot is in a psychiatric ward for part of the book, and Loren worries more about taking care of Eliot than seducing him. Eliot can't always get hard, and Loren has to learn that sex can be pleasurable for Eliot even if he can't come.



Eliot wants to please Loren; he wants to do something, anything, for his man, and believes that this is the one thing, the ONLY thing, he can do.

You have to work to find joy in this book. Eliot and Loren are on a roller-coaster that never slows down. Even the epilogue, despite the soothing presence of the happy couples from books 1 and 2, is tinged with sorrow as both men remember the struggles they've had.

But they have family, friends, and each other. They have trust and moments of beauty: moments when love matters and nothing else does.

"You've always been with me, Loren, through my memories. Always." ....

"I'm glad, El ... I'm glad I'm your best memories."



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