From the blurb:
Since childhood, Jake, Adam, Kyle, and Brendan have been teammates, best friends, brothers. Then one day, when they were twenty-five, Adam disappeared without a word, devastating his friends-none more so than Jake, who had secretly loved Adam since they were teenagers.
Now, five years later, Adam is back, and he has his mind set on Jake. But those years of anger, hurt, and confusion are a lot to overcome, and Jake doesn't find it easy to forgive. He isn't sure they'll ever fit together the way they did. Jake, Kyle, and Brendan have moved on with their lives, but Adam's high-profile career keeps him in the closet-the same place he's been for years. Still, his apologies seem sincere, and the attraction is still there. Jake desperately wants to give him a chance. But first he has to find out why Adam left and if he's really back for good.
I have dueling feelings about this story.
On the one hand, I left the story thinking that Kate McMurray is a really excellent writer. I got an immediate sense for these characters, these childhood best friends, and the atmosphere of the story. I liked the way the author wove in the flashbacks and kept up the pace of the book. It held my interest the entire time. I also loved the secondary characters, perhaps more than the main characters... which leads me to one of my main issue with this book:
I'm still mad as hell at Adam.
I felt pissed at him for the majority of this story. I just felt like Jake forgave him way, way too easily. I felt hurt and angry about how selfish Adam was when he took off, and I couldn't wrap my brain around how Jake could forgive him without excessive, excessive grovelling.
I also had some problems with the current relationship between Jake and Adam. You know there are some couples who are on and off, but you are rooting so hard for them because you know that they are meant to be together? Adam and Jake were not like that for me. They seemed like two completely different people in two completely different places in their lives. It felt forced and awkward for most of the story. There was a lot of arguing and back and forth. I would have much, much preferred it if they tried to make it work and then realized that they didn't work as a couple after all. I was rooting for another main character to step in, actually.
When it comes down to it, I wasn't sold on the "love" that Adam and Jake had for each other. I can sort of see why Jake was infatuated with Adam when they were younger (well, kind of, because Adam used to be a surly douche) but they hadn't seen each other in 5 years. When they did get together again, most of what I felt was palpable tension. I'm not quite sure how that translated into love for these two guys. It felt more like nostalgia than love to me.
So why did I give this book even 3 stars? It comes down to the fact that much of my reasons for not loving this story were emotional, personal hangups. I can easily see how someone else could come in and adore this book. Also, I think that the author had to be doing something very right to get me to feel so much emotion, good or bad, about the characters.
**Copy provided by the publisher in exchange for an honest review**
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